Helpless feeling is as bad as surviving the icy cold winter

I was so looking forward to meet my family last Sunday...

could not wait...

But what happen on Sunday, was a shock to me...

Me: Where are we going now?? [was thinking of places to shop]

Dad: Hospital...

Me:?? WHY?? See who??

Dad: Your yeye... He fell down... Now in hospital... We are going to see him...

Me: *Speechless* [my mind was blank, totally blank]

I really did not know that my granddad was admitted into the hospital...

I was really really blank...

I did not know how long the journey was to the hospital...

Coz i did not know what i was thinking, or maybe i did not even realize what had happen...

Hospital

Dad: Your bother can't go in... [dad went up to see yeye]

Me: Mommy, you go up see yeye 1st.. i take care of yong how...

Dunno how long later...

Mommy: your turn to go up... take this this this direction... 7th floor

Me: *walked as fast as I can, tried to find the room* [Saw grandma, I felt like crying] Ah mah..

Ah Mah: I scared you don't know where is the room... You ok or not??

Me: I juz flu... You ok? Yeye ok??

*Saw yeye and relatives*

Me: Yeye... You ok mar *felt tears in eyes, tried to held back the tears*

All the time i was with my granddad...

I felt like crying...

Coz I did not know what had happen...

Living so so near, yet...

I felt so far apart...

I managed to fight back my tears, but that does not mean I dun feel sad...

Sad coz I was the last to know...

Sad coz i could not help with anything...

Sad coz I was afraid I was not able to see him again...

The helpless feeling is as bad as surviving the icy cold winter...